☆SoBasicallyYouRuinedMe☆

Hey!

In case anyone happened to care,

The past few years of my life were lies.

I was lied to.

Screwed over.

Hurt.

Betrayed.

Stabbed in the back.

And yet,

I feel nothing at all.

I don't feel hurt,

I don't feel sad.

Instead I feel relieved.

I feel like I had been Atlas all those years.

And now,

Since you left,

I have been relieved,

I no longer have to bear the pain,

Of holding the world on my shoulders.

I feel like i can be happy.

I can smile for real.

I don't have to cry anymore.

I wish I never had to go through any of that.

I'm glad it meant nothing.

I was just a thing to use when you were bored.

But it no longer effects me.

I am so much happier now.

I can be who I used to be.

Just,

Improved a bit by youth.

I have become a true teenager.

I can live how I want to.

I don't have a bad influence staring down at me.

I can feel free,

I am no longer tied down.

All those years I felt as though there was no escape.

I felt I had nowhere to run to.

I couldn't tell anyone,

They would call me crazy.

But now,

I can go on as if you were never here.

So basically,

While you were here,

You ruined me.

You made your life a game of chess,

And I was simply a pawn.

Used as a small defense,

Something easily replaceable,

I didn't make it to the other side,

I couldn't become a higher piece.

I always stayed a pawn.

Until you decided to put me into play,

And let me fall onto the sidelines.

Where I was no longer useful.

Throw me away like a piece of complete garbage.

Am I still useless I wonder?

Guess I'll never know.

Guess what?

I don't even care.